BBCParamedic Nevine al Dawawi says Jabalia has been “besieged” via Israeli forcesFrom the out of doors, it’s exhausting to appreciate the intensity of struggling skilled via civilians in Gaza.On Monday 21 October, a video emerged from Jabalia that gave an strangely detailed perception into the power and the horror imposed on civilians via Israel’s present offensive in northern Gaza. Gazing it, you are feeling nearly like an eyewitness.On a daily basis, like many reporters who’re pressured to file the conflict from out of doors Gaza as a result of Israel is not going to allow us to in, I watch many movies that emerge on-line, harrowing scenes of wounded, loss of life and bereaved other folks in hospitals, of guys within the rubble rescuing survivors and digging out our bodies, and civilians pressured to transport via the Israelis, strolling via thick sand the place roads was, previous the unrecognisable ruins.They’re all terrible to look, and so was once the one who got here from the assault in Jabalia on Monday morning. However for me it was once extraordinary as it confirmed the ache, grief, chaos, panic and hopelessness within the seconds and mins straight away after an assault. The instant is so excessive that disposing of a telephone to movie it’s the very last thing the general public do. Over a few years as a reporter in wars, I’ve noticed and skilled the similar disbelief and surprise. It takes time for the mind to meet up with the totally modified fact that your eyes are seeing.The Jabalia Boys Fundamental college was once attacked simply after 09:00 within the morning, on 21 October. It was once now not a spot of studying however were became a safe haven for displaced civilians, like many colleges in Gaza run via UNRWA, the UN company for Palestinian refugees. The entire ones nonetheless status, this is.Within the video, a paramedic known as Nevine al Dawawi, an increasing number of panic-stricken, runs between useless and loss of life civilians, the usage of her telephone to report what is going on (once I reported this primary, at the day of the strike, she was once misidentified as Nabila.)We controlled to trace down Nevine in Gaza Town. She was once in a position to present us her personal account of what took place on Monday morning. She responded questions, and a lot more composed now, she performed again the video. In it, she is agitated and scared, operating between civilians mendacity in their very own blood, subsequent to useless our bodies.This tale accommodates some distressing main points from this level’I do not have anything else to prevent the bleeding’“Relax,” she screams at a badly harm girl sitting in a pool of blood.“I swear I don’t have anything else to prevent the bleeding.”She runs down a passage pockmarked via shrapnel. On a stairwell she sees extra casualties, turns away in horror, alternatives up a bag and says “let’s move, so no-one else will get killed”.A person’s voice at the video says, “stick with us Nevine.” Grabbing the bag, which is filled with wound dressings, she is going again to the stairwell this is operating with blood. A kid’s voice says, please assist, my sister is loss of life, please assist me.A lady says my youngsters are long past. Nevine requested how she knew.“Take a look at them,” the girl says. One could be very nonetheless, the opposite has a serious head wound and is both useless or loss of life.Nevine palms over dressings, despite the fact that it’s too past due. They’re all she has, and she or he is the one paramedic there.Nevine instructed us that the girl at the stairs whose youngsters have been killed was once Lina Ibrahim Abu Namos. Newshounds running for the BBC discovered her in Kamal Adwan health facility in Jabalia the place she is being handled for shrapnel accidents. Two of Lina’s seven youngsters have been killed, her eldest daughter and her most effective son. Her husband wasn’t with them when the assault took place, as he was once already being handled for wounds sustained in an previous assault.“I noticed my daughter loss of life, with my very own eyes. She was once loss of life in entrance of me. I could not prevent it, and she or he was once my eldest, my complete existence, truthfully, my whole existence. When your eldest dies in entrance of you…”“I couldn’t save her, and I used to be additionally wounded. I couldn’t care for myself, I discovered myself falling at the flooring. I began crawling against her.”Lina Ibrahim Abu Namos has misplaced two of her youngsters because the conflict startedNevine, the paramedic, defined that they’d been “besieged” on the college for 16 or 17 days. Above them was once the excitement of quadcopters, small drones used broadly via the IDF. It has a variety of them, for surveillance and espionage, to factor orders via loudspeakers, for losing bombs or firing at Palestinians they need to kill.“We have been residing in such a lot worry. When the college was once hit, we had other folks killed and injured. There was once not anything there to devour or drink. The water tanker that was once in most cases despatched to us was once bombed via the Israelis. It was once like that for days. 3 days in the past, a quadcopter descended at the college at 9 within the morning, giving us an ultimatum to get out via 10. The quadcopter loudspeaker mentioned we needed to evacuate the college as a result of we have been in a deadly combating zone.”“We didn’t have time to pack our stuff. It gave us only one hour. After simply 10 mins, Israeli airplanes bombed the college. It was once a large bloodbath with over 30 wounded and greater than 10 killed.”Within the video, the wounded and useless at the bloody stairs don’t seem to be the one casualties. Nevine leaves the stairwell, and runs to a person almost definitely in his sixties, who’s leaning over a pile of luggage together with his head in his palms. She appears to look if by hook or by crook, he has survived a serious neck wound and screams when she sees that he has no longer.“Lend a hand him, he’s useless – it’s Uncle Abu Mohammed.”3 days later I despatched questions for a Palestinian freelance journalist to invite her at al Ahli health facility in Gaza Town. One was once about Abu Mohammed.“He was once our neighbour. His two sons have been additionally killed… one had part his head long past.”She talked our reporter in the course of the video as she performed it again on her telephone.“The video confirmed women torn to items. It additionally presentations males with their intestines sticking out from abdomen wounds… A ten-year-old boy had his bowels bulging out of doors his abdomen. His mum was once killed, injured within the center.”“Some girls who have been taking duvet have been additionally injured and others killed. A cleaner on the college was once shredded into items. A 12-year-old lady had a leg blown off. So did a lady displaced from Beit Hanoun, a the city in Gaza’s north. She was once elderly between 35 and 40.”The day prior to the assault at the college, as Israel’s offensive intensified, Tor Wennesland – the senior UN diplomat in Jerusalem – issued a powerful remark.“The nightmare in Gaza is intensifying. Frightening scenes are unfolding within the northern Strip amidst war, relentless Israeli moves and an ever-worsening humanitarian disaster.”“Nowhere is secure in Gaza. I condemn the ongoing assaults on civilians. This conflict should finish, the hostages held via Hamas should be freed, the displacement of Palestinians should stop, and civilians should be safe anywhere they’re. Humanitarian help should be delivered unimpeded.”Israel insists that it acts in self-defence, and claims its forces admire the regulations of conflict. Nearly each day for the final yr in Gaza, and extra not too long ago in Lebanon it says that civilians get killed as a result of armed teams use them as human shields.We put that to the paramedic, Nevine al Dawawi.The IDF claimed Hamas was once the usage of civilians as human shields, is that true?“No, Hamas was once no longer the usage of civilians as human shields. They have been protective us and status with us.”Getty ImagesFamilies fleeing Israeli military operations in Jabalia take the principle Salah al-Din highway against Gaza Town on 23 October. For lots of in Israel, her remark that Hamas have been within the house will likely be taken as a justification for the horrors that the IDF introduced down at the civilians simply after 9 within the morning on Monday 21 October.However conflict crimes legal professionals will ask whether or not the assault was once justified. The regulations of conflict say that civilians should be safe, and that casualties inflicted on them must be in share to the army risk confronted via an attacking drive.If senior Hamas commanders have been there, or a large focus of warring parties getting ready to battle, in all probability the assault may well be justified via the Israel Protection Forces’ personal legal professionals.But when Hamas, whose construction as a combating drive has been dismantled in a yr of relentless Israeli assaults, had only some native males with weapons within the house, then the assault would breach the regulation.Within the not likely match that the Palestinians within the video ever had an afternoon in court docket, their legal professionals may say that the army risk to the IDF at that second didn’t justify wounding 30 civilians, causing existence converting accidents, and killing greater than 10 others, together with many youngsters.I’m pressured to make use of conditional tenses as a result of I’m penning this in Jerusalem, no longer after interviewing eyewitnesses on the scene of the assault in Jabalia in Gaza. Newshounds will all the time fight to get to get to the most productive conceivable model of the reality they are able to to find when they’re stopped from attending to where the place the tale took place.Israel allowed journalists into their border communities alongside the border with Gaza within the days after the Hamas assaults final yr. I used to be in Kfar Azza kibbutz once they have been nonetheless convalescing the our bodies of useless Israelis, as infantrymen checked constructions with bursts of gunfire. They sought after us to look the place Hamas had killed round 1,200 Israelis, most commonly civilians, and dragged greater than 250 into captivity in Gaza.The proof is piling up that Israel has accomplished issues in Gaza that it does no longer need reporters to look, which is why they are going to no longer allow us to move into the territory, except for on uncommon and extremely managed visits with the military. I’ve been in most effective as soon as, within the first month of the conflict, when Israeli firepower had already grew to become the spaces of northern Gaza that I noticed right into a wilderness.Because of this, reporters depend on movies and statements that emerge from Palestinians inside of Gaza, together with some very courageous reporters, and from global diplomats, medics and help staff who’re allowed into Gaza, and witnesses like Nevine with smartphones.Within the health facility, Lina Ibrahim Abu Namos was once haunted via her lack of her eldest daughter, her most effective son, and the whole thing they known as house.“I had seven youngsters, and now I most effective have 5 left… What can I say? I don’t even know. Via God, they have got damaged our hearts. We’re exhausted, emotionally tired. We’ve misplaced the whole thing.”“What crime have the youngsters dedicated? What have they accomplished? What have we accomplished to deserve this?”“What have we accomplished to the Israelis? I swear, they’ve destroyed our youngsters.””I’m so scared. I don’t devour or drink. Not anything. All I would like is for my youngsters to stick round me, as a result of we’re scared and we’ve been displaced from one position to any other. What’s left for my daughters and for me? There’s no house, nowhere secure, not anything. I’m simply one of the other folks with nowhere to head, no protection. I am exhausted.”